Captured Moments: July 2012

Monday, July 30, 2012

A childs truth ... january 5, 2011

"Small children hear the truth and accept it. They understand right and wrong and will freely do what is right because it is right; they will feel badly when they do wrong because it was wrong. No hidden motives, no deep understanding, no inner voice telling them what to do...just acting upon truth. Too bad we couldnt keep that innocent knowledge in our age.... :/"

I didn't choose you ... january 16, 2011

"to all my wonderful children... Don't worry... I didn't choose you either so when you feel like I'm the last person in the world that you'd want to be related to, or that my actions are sooo totally annoying keep in mind that they might be shared thoughts!!! :/"

Responsible for... may 15, 2011

"I am not responsible for your anger..I am not responsible for your frustrations..I am not responsible for your feelings toward me..I am responsible for what I do, what I say, how I react, my anger, my frustrations, and my feelings for you..So don't blame me when I don't feed into an arguement, when I walk away with a smile, and when I still love you when you hate me♥ I am choosing to live life happy and with love♥"

live for the moment ...june 7, 2011

"‎... live for the moment.... because a quickly as it came, as wonderful as it is, as much as you might want it to last.... if you spend too much time thinking about how it got here, how it makes you feel, or how to keep it going.... it will surely slip away..... if you just live, you will have it forever - even if forever means in your memories.... at least they will be wonderful ones... :) ♥"

You love me Lord ...july 3, 2011

"As I fly away confused... by the storms of life,
You've been there with me
The guiding force that has kept me strong...
When I felt weak Lord; you always knew...
When it was reminding I needed,
... My blessings felt true...
As the fear subsides, and I know it's safe;
I find you here in the resting place...
You comfort me, guide me, and let me soar free...
You love me Lord; even when I am...Me..."

Created july 6, 2011

"‎.... I am but a tiny nothing in this world, in this universe, in Creation... yet when I stand in a valley and look up a mountain, or down a stream; when I stand on a mountain and look past the horizens, when I look to the skys and wonder... I feel mighty, and strong and free... I feel... "Created!!"....."

Broken july 8, 2011

"Broken hearts, shattered dreams... crashing down amongst the screams.... a day that started like any other, the ending comes while we still recover.... the words that were spoken, the wounds that are a token.... will the pieces ever fit back, to fix the family that's been broken?? ...."

Don't Tread july 14, 2011

"When I open up, when I let down the walls... it's not so people can walk in an walk over me.... it's so I can live again.... it's so I can breath and feel free, so I can hold my head high or low and still see where I am going.... so I never have to hide again behind anything.... ..... This is my life, don't tread on it so freely!!!"

we have No control.. august 28, 2011

"‎...we can build a small house, a beautiful building. We can plant a seed and watch it grow... we can control many things in this world... .... but always the most powerful, the most amazing, the most destructive, will be those that we have absolutely NO control over... ... we are but guests, blessed with a beautiful painted sky, central heating and air, free water... and this place we call home is controlled by a Creator greater than any here... thank you God for my world/my home ♥"

Limits july 25, 2011

Limits

Secrets are kept for reasons like these, reactions of others, pressures to change hard made decisions, lack of understanding that we ultimately each person are in control of our own life.
It's simply the fact that those lives intertwine - that the thoughts of control and influence become taken from an individual.
The love and respect that bonds people together, will bring a person to step outside their boundries to please other people.
Ultimately they hurt themselves and live with the unhappiness that will forever dwell within their hearts for following other instead of staying true to what lies within them

falling in lust ... august 3, 2011

"The journey begins and draws us in... the moments come and capture us one by one... when within we have become awakened to the thrill of the ride... the journey comes to an end... leaving us with a longing and searching for what we lost before it began, or what we had while it survived... ... waiting, for it to return, or make sense... ... ... do we stand still and wait or turn and fly away??"

Atmosphere august 8,2011

The time for change is stong approaching...
like a storm in the distance.
It builds the weight in the atmosphere,
stirs up the energies within.
Until everything inside the soul is longing,
aching to get out of where it is.
To feel the freshness of the storm to come,
to be touched by the changes it will bring...
even if it's only to clean things...
and bask in the sun afterward ...
... a little or a lot,
the atmosphere stirs here...
　
@s.ray
august 8,2011

If I could, I would ... august 18, 2011

for Christopher

"If I could take all your pains and make them go away.. Then with me I would carry them, until my dying day.... I would stand strong enough for all of this and never waver nor stop, if for you the pain could go and happiness you'd find ♥"

words

Letters create words,

words capture thoughts,

thoughts reflects emotions...

but even with the greatest letter combinations...

... sometimes what is felt, or thought

simply can't be expressed in words ....

@s.ray 9-13-2011

waterfalls. october 29, 2011

"that which we run from in life will only find us in our hiding places on another day... and if what we seek in life are the simpleness of rainbows and waterfalls, the beauty and wonder of it all... then have we turned a blind eye to the shadows that are cast, that must be seen if we are to see the whole picture? afterall... where would the beauty be in a waterfall with no shadows?"

Torn to shreds. december 15, 2011

"It's amazing how quick the people around someone are to point the finger and say... it's because you are this, or you are that... ... don't they ever realize that by treating people constantly like they are nothing and nobody because they aren't physically or mentally perfect... they tear them more and more apart... ... how will they feel one day when the shreds are all gone????"

Circles or Cycles january 31, 2012

"
circles, or cycles? which would it be?
what would define the force driving me?
minds are created... from birth? or from life?
what can be needed to keep them right?
emotions evolve and feelings grow...
... then with time the gift of emotions dull...
lost in the memories of a life gone fast,
flooded by moments, regrets, emotions, that past.
second chances are things we never get,
when this journey is over, will I simply forget?
can I take with me all I have learned,
all I have loved, all I have yearned...
if time here comes before I am done,
can I move on feeling like the best is yet to come?
or will I just continue in circles or cycles?
what would be the defining force driving me?See More
"

searching for pieces feb 5, 2012

"We fight to protect what is ours, and to give them what we feel is right in this life.... protect them from hurt, from heartache. Try to help them make choices that will be good for them, and not judge them when they make mistakes.... but what happens when one gets through?... when one is able to tear apart the bonds, the trust, the love? . . . .what happens when one person comes into their life and turns it upside down and then, tears them away from you?... ... ... do you hate that one for destroying so many in their path?.. or do you hate yourself for not being strong enough to have kept it out from the start???

searching for the peices..."

"Okay... Maybe, I should tell you more often I love you, maybe I should post more often when I pass through your facebook instead of just creeping on what you've been doing with yourself ... (sometimes it matters to know you were thought of)... and I KNOW for sure, if you were ever not in my life I would live with a thousand regrets of kinder words I could have, should have spoken when I had the chance....

{what if it was too late, what if . . . .}"

with Knowledge feb 26, 2012

"Knowledge... a gift or a curse.
Somethings... some.. times are better left unknown...
once the knowledge is there it's like every moment, every action somehow...
has to become changed....
Yet, without the knowledge-- in all reality....
couldn't everything have simlpy gone on the same??"

If I feelt it.. It's real to Me... march 15, 2012

"if i think it... than it's real to me. if i wonder about it... than it's in my mind, and even my heart. if i feel it inside or out.... even if you don't... than it's there, in my life, affecting my thoughts--my emotions--my fears--me.

it doesn't change because you don't feel or see what i do...
... it doesn't make it less real to me.

the sun rises and the sun sets even for the blind."

Wounds of a Word march 19, 2012

"
words can so often cut deeper then ever realized. . . when they form in your mind, and cross your lips... they only have that simplest moment [unrecognizable in time] ... to be captured and held, or blurted and shared.

once that instant is gone, and the choice is made to share those words....
there can be to taking them back.. .. even if you didn't realize what those words would do... ... you don...'t get to re-say them... you can try to say more to explain, you can try to speak words that won't sound the same...

but a word, once it has left your thoughts and crossed your lips... ....

is there... and can echo or fade, cut or heal, build up or tear down.
Think:
because the wounds of a word hurt as deeply as the wounds of a weapon.
"

Human Mind march 28, 2012

"The human mind can become its own worst enemy... or its own closest friend. it is there to comfort you when you feel all alone [keeping thoughts racing around], its there to make you sort things through [when you really feel like you already know what you heard], it keeps your body functioning even when it needs to take a rest itself--and leaves you feeling lost [at least you can still breath :P], and best of all, it will always lead you back to where the awswers will be... ... even when you try not to listen."

through the trials april 1, 2012

"
thinking as I'm sorting out my mind... if someone says "God never gives us more than we can handle"... than that would mean that we would have to accept that our trials in our life are put there by God. . . well, I'm not so sure that I do. I think that it's not that He gives us trials, it's that He's there with us as we face them... and when they get too bad He carries us, and even calms them. . ....

but to accept that He gives them would mean... ... He makes people sick?, makes people die?, makes natural disasters destroy lives?, causes accidents?...

this just doesn't make sense... ... to me, today.. in my manic state of mind... I think God is just the Comforter that eases us through the trials, if we let Him. . . .See More
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to Tyler ... april 5th, 2012

to Tyler:

"What if... what if the words we spoke were the last we ever heard?... what if we never got second chances?... what if we never took a moment to let the people who mean the most in our lives know that they are our world.. ... well.. ... you know what? .. ... if you read this, then you know-- that no matter what we have ever been through, no matter what we have ever said, you make my world, and I wouldn't want you any other way... but I would take you any way you are... I love you son... ♥"

simple plain world may 7, 2012

"The world... the simple plain world... is a conquerable place in itself, a beautiful place by itself, and place that gives us all we need... if it can be lived is as a simple and plain world, a place to live and love and be free... ... ...

This is not a simple and plain world... it is not a conquerable place because there is always more than just itself, its not always a beautiful place because it is covered up, and changed so it is often lost, and life here stopped being simple and plain many years ago.... .... so where do we go now to live and love and just be free? ... ..."

It doesn't matter? may 5th, 2012

"Its so impossible sometimes to keep up the smiles, when the hurt keeps getting deeper. Its so hard to feel like your world is being stolen and not fight for it. Its so much more than life could have ever prepared me for, to have to be the one to, sit back, let go, and loose it all. When life prepared me for so long to be the one, to hold on strong, stand up and fight, and never give up. when... when will I know, that I've curled up and died long enough?... when do I get to stop pretending it doesn't matter?...

moments we will want back may 9, 2012

to Tyler:

"It's a journey in itself for each and every one that has been in your world, no matter how near or how far... for all of your life.

Because, for all these years, days, moments we have shared with you... we have now been paused and been given a reason to rethink, relive, reminisce. :)... It's easy to live in the moment and forget... ... ... you remind me now, that it's moments we take for granted, that one day we will want back the most.
"

Clearing the air

"Its kind of ironic how its described as "clearing the air" .... Yet when all is said and done it somehow always seems harder to breath.... ...."

Will Smith quote.. "Stop letting.. " july 17, 2012

"‎"Stop letting people who do so little for you control so much of your mind, feelings and emotions"-Will Smith .... ...

To be able to remember this and live it in each moment of life would help to live more moments of this life at peace... ....

to do this ... in essence would seperate the strong from the weak"

wondering

friday july 27, 2012

not saying.. I'm living life with regrets... .. just wondering what life would be like if my choices had been different along the way... ...

What are captured moments?

They are moments in this time that we have here...that have managed to become captured and able to be shared. Poems, words, thoughts that got written down; basically a moment in time that can stand still and be relived by one or many. As I have gone through life I at several times wrote, poems came out, other times just thoughts. Now enough of life has passed that I can look back and appreciate that those times stood still so that I can now go back and see them.
Alot like looking through old photos with an older family member...listening to them and watching their expressions as they are taken back to that time....
So now begins a short journey back in time, and hopefully a long journey ahead.