Betrayed by My Soul

My comforter.

My guidance.

Reflecting what life Is.

Bringing to my heart 

The happiness it sought.

To my mind the ease

From the chaos it breathed.

You were the inspiring movement 

That pushed me to achieve.

Never have you left me,

You've been through LIFE 

Through everything with me...

Except now... 

Now when it's all broken 

No chaos in the mind...

Just questions.

No inspiration to motivate for...

It's simply hopeless.

Consumed is this spirit by Pain...

Beyond measure...

Betrayed by you... My Soul.

You've taken flight and left me...

A washed out treasure.

No soul to guide...

Leaving the spirit to die.

@s.aleem

3.24.2016

Colors

After Shock

It's just so impossible to absorb. 

A reality that the world says is yours.

Oh, in this mind I hear the words.

Every single shred of my soul has..

Has...

Has grasped onto your reality...

Lost some place now in the After,

Shock... Aftermath... Destruction.

I apologize for filling your time...

With such desperate need to...

Understand..Comprehend... Analyze.

For in this truth you now call life,

I search for the reasons to...

Breath, live, smile... Do anything...

Anything but just die. 

Intellectually I know... I know.

I'm meant to hate you for this.

I should be angry... Livid... 

I should have all the strength

To stand strong... Move on...

.... And yet...

You shook me to the very very 

Essence of my being... 

You have stripped me of my heart,

My soul, and all desire to breath...

To do anything beyond this...

Sickening... Consuming PAIN.

Stronger than the greatest disaster 

This world has to offer... 

The After Shock of you...

May just consume me. 

@s.irfanaleem

3.16 2016

Heartaches Reality

Each night I close my eyes begging the universe to take my soul...

Each day I am given a new hour of life...

I beg the mind for strength to solve the equations to escape before it's at the fate of the universe yet again...

And so I find myself faced with the struggle of breathing day after day...

And the salty moisture that puts me to sleep... Really never is the ocean I long for to just wash me away...

3.16.2016

S.aleem...