Lies intertwine Lives interweave

For so long you've kept your lies in check 

Your lives have been... Two.. Separate.

Years have passed with hearts and souls engaged 

Intertwined so completely that life felt engraved 

This would all still be what you planned it to be 

If by some unforeseen chance an image hadn't been seen 

And yet still you find a way to weave lies that feel real 

That holds hope of some unimaginable fairytale come true 

One can only wonder what will become of the other half 

The other one.. The perfect world from where you come 

As cracks are placed into your foundation.

As the second life becomes 

And then you walk away

In all of loves perfection 

In the midst of the souls 

Beautiful connection 

A world outside of this bliss

Just can't possibly exist 

And then you walk away 

Reality shines light into 

The truth of a new day 

The heart shriveles and hides

Deep inside with those haunting 

Echos that fill the mind 

And the soul fights to stay alive 

In case you walk back this way.

The words of dreams to one day live

Promises of a life of happiness 

Weaving in just enough hope 

To keep me holding the place for you 

Not giving room for another to prove 

Prove that I am a soul worth more 

....

And then the perfection comes 

A connection impossible to resist 

Breathing life once again 

To the dying soul within...

And then you walk away 

@s.vanderbilt 12.15.2017

Relationship Real

Relationship real is...

Natural... without trying 

Be it a love affair, marriage, friendship or family.

I know this.. I have 4 daughters. One I am very close to, "Naturally" we have the kind of relationship that we don't work on. We have great days, normal days and yes even bad days. (those we work on). We shop together and pick up where the other leaves off, cleaning is a natural balance (we live together). An yes we laugh hysterically, and tell the deepest secrets. 

Then there's the other daughter very close to that one in age.. I love her because she's my daughter... but that Real Relationship was never Really there. Please bear in mind that they are both adults, I use them as examples because I'm referencing adult relationships.

I've met men that I felt like I had to be a certain way around them ... then I met someone I was completely comfortable with and forgot to think about anything.. I was just Natural ... completely comfortable and open in thought and actions with that person. 

That's when you have become Relationship Real. 

You shouldn't have to Work On Relationships in your life. There are already enough life issues for you and anyone in your life to have to try to be anything other then 100% REAL. 

Half

Half of a century
Half of a life it will be
yet nearly impossible it seems
that so much time could have passed
passed so quickly for me

If I were a book
would this story be half over?
What would the chapters have told?
(_________________).....
As I pause and search my soul.

I can't be a book,
A novel, a series.... an endless: hmmm
when will there just be nothing more to me?
I approach this number as a challenge
a start of a whole new life.
Maybe I'm wrong...
or Maybe I'm right.

I never envisioned where life would take me
and living it was just a day to day thing
yet something about this years birthday..
it screams... demands... so loud the echos ring
Time For Change!!!

So now, with a book half written,
chapters, that left people hanging...
and some that just never made sense.
Choice that have impacted forever.
Secrets that will die with me in a grave.

I'm 8 days from the decision of a lifetime.
Maybe I'm wrong..
or Maybe I'm right.
At least this half of life will be mine.

@s.vanderbilt 12/13/2017

Imagry... Imagining

An image captured by one

reminds of a moment... 

one can relive with each time they visit the vision

The sensations of the day, the sounds, the memories

they will fill the soul ... but only to the one

who captured the moment.

For all the others who see; the mind can fill

with imagination... what it might have felt like,

the air, the smell, the soumds

the experience

Imagination can write any story.

@s.vanderbilt 12.2017

photo 11.2017

Very Cold, Soaking wet from the snow/rain/sleet of the mist of the falls which subsequently produced such a beautiful rainbow in front of the Rainbow Bridge Border Crossing in Niagara Falls Canada.