Subservient

Forever embedded within me
This subservient person
You forced me to be
Silently robbed of my
INDIVIDUALITY.
Why, oh why....
Couldn't you just let me be me?

So many years you have been gone.
You left, you died, I moved on.
Lived my life....
And yet still in silent obedience
I still bow down and
SERVE...

I degrade myself internally
When I look for self worth.
Except less, give more
And why? 
Because you drilled it in,
Until I understood
That's all my life is for....

The chardes only last until
The people walk away....
The tears held back,
Still choke me every day.
But I know the role and play it well
Always look down,
Keep your voice to yourself.
....
Make everything as it should be,
And your world will stay at peace.

S.irfanaleem 08.21.2015

Today's Reality

So which me is it going to be?
Which one will be the image
Of today's reality?

The raw, simple truth. .. that life is a Web
A Web of lies and masks,
A game of charades?
Or The Beautiful Excentric Fairytale
That we all would love to believe?

Shall the tears glisten and give false hope in my eyes. ..
Or shall they let go and release. ..
Leaving behind the trail...
the silent story of my life.

In all honesty. .
This ache of a broken heart.
It motives more than it cripples.
It builds power, reason to restart.
For the soul knows that from...
Fresh cut limbs. ..
Beautiful branches will one day grow.

The blood that bleeds is internal,
For on the outside,
no one has to know.
Oh, they shall look upon and watch
The growth of a new life. ..
Never recognizing the suffering.
The changes endured behind.

So, which one will it be?
Which one will be the image. ..
Of "Today's Reality"...

S.irfanaleem 8.11.2015