Saturday, October 5, 2019

Family

I follow the trail and find such interesting stories.
A history, a people who I am proud to have come from.
and yet, I was deprived of these people, this heritage, this lineage.
Why?
Because of family choices that I can never know, never understand.
And the same will come for the generations to come.

We, the adults in life.
We get to live the way we choose regardless of wrong or right.
Then one day, someday, one will come along and want an accounting.
Deserve an explanation to why they have been deprived of the family
Connections.

Who are they most like in life? When it isn't those around...
Won't they, Don't they? Deserve the understanding of their own worth?
The actual place in lineage of their own birth?

I have a heritage flowing through these veins...
People have impact on who I have become, not by nurture...
Nature dictates just the same.

Time and years have created a vast valley between me and those,
A distance that would never allow recognition...
And who's hurt the most?

@s.vanderbilt  2019

#heritage #familytree #whoamI #lineage 

The Dreams

For oh so long the dreams have held,
the hopes of where I'd someday dwell.

Staring at the everyday me, lost...
just imagining what life could be.

Now, shaken by lifes reality,
I sit in this place that I have created for me.

Yet, still... the dreams smother the essence.
Where is the freedom, the creativity?

What is it that from within binds me?
Confines me, to just the dreams...

Somewhere, someplace, chains were wrapped
wrapped around this soul...
and now...
Life as the dreams desire it...
Can't seem to take control.

Always held back by the invisible force
Restricted to living my best life...
within the confines of the mind.
Within the realms of the Dreams...

where everything becomes what it is
dreamt to be.

@s.vanderbilt

#self #limited #lifesstruggle #ambition