It doesn't matter? may 5th, 2012

"Its so impossible sometimes to keep up the smiles, when the hurt keeps getting deeper. Its so hard to feel like your world is being stolen and not fight for it. Its so much more than life could have ever prepared me for, to have to be the one to, sit back, let go, and loose it all. When life prepared me for so long to be the one, to hold on strong, stand up and fight, and never give up. when... when will I know, that I've curled up and died long enough?... when do I get to stop pretending it doesn't matter?...