Your Rein

I look at you from across the floor
Your laugh, your smile, your look...
Draws me in for more...
The words you speak,
the glances I sneak...
Captivate me and I yearn for more.
So quickly it builds and consumes me.
The feeling I have when you touch me,
Leaving me feeling like never before.
Head over heals, I'm lost in you,
Consumed by each moment I spend with you.
Hoping inside this is right...
Wishing somehow I could be sure.
The words turn bitter,
But I'm not a quiter...
Leaving me feeling like never before.
Its a ride I'm on, of love and hate.
Knowing now it's far too late.
What will you be feeling...
when you come through that door.
So eager to do whatever you ask,
Willing to die to make this last.
Leaving me feeling like never before.
Wounds that need time to heal,
yet somehow I think it proves my love is real.
Bruises outside ease the pain within,
Wondering now when did it begin.
Whatever I did, I'll never know.
I'm trapped inside a life of terror.
Knowing everything is a weapon,
A tool to be used, to threaten...
to silently take my life from me.
Death is the answer, and yet I escape.
This life is no longer yours to take.
The love you will keep for a time to come,
A piece of me; trapped - to never move on.
Then death takes you and leaves me free,
to find a life that was meant to be.
Years go by and you still keep my thoughts.
Memories held with the terror you brought.
But my heart is free and I find peace
Happiness in this world I now see.
Finally I can live and learn to be me.
Rainbows and waterfalls, I chase in my dreams.
Living and feeling like never before.
Knowing forever I can be:
"a freespirit"...
Controled by you never more.

I feel that for all the precious words I wrote... the pieces that I put together on a thought.. ... I owe it to Me to 'set them free' ...

Maybe because ~ what good is a beautiful thought, or collection of words if they are never heard??~

Live Each Moment

Today is Christmas.. 2012...
This year has taken us on a journey we Never could have imagined.
Yet... today the last holiday of the year... I feel very Blessed.
Last night as I wrapped presents ~ I talked with my son.. who told me the greatest thing he learned to love over the years about this day... was the family moments... the feeling of "Home"... we talked from 1000+ miles away, yet it felt like he was here with me.. <3 ...="..." p="p">Then.. I went and talked with the one who was always my baby.. until his little sister came when he was 10... and he said the greatest gift he ever got for christmas... was the memories... that the presents fade, get lost, or broken... but nothing can change the memories. . <3 p="p">This year we, as a family... faced major life changing events.
Thank you God for letting us share more time with Tyler...  ...
In ways that we miss sometimes... (like when a 6 year old.. says.. "everyone is either sick, or busy" ... it made me stop and re-evaluate life in my home. . .

Because like I already knew... and sometimes need reminders... each moment is a gift/ an opportunity to recognize the great and simple value of the priceless gifts... ... life, love, and family <3 p="p">
 

a picture

a picture can capture
a moment in time
that we don't want to lose
from our memories.
A moment we might not have gotten to see,
a moment we may want to relive forever,
that we didn't get to cherish...
                a picture is priceless

@s.ray

The Reflection is Me

What do you see?
What do you hear?
When the image is beauty,
the words so sincere.
Its a vision I saw.
A thought that I had.
A place that I've been.
A feeling that passed.
Glance for a moment longer.
You will soon find,
Look closly at these,
Frozen moments in time.
The Reflection you would see,

Would be Me!

Observed

Silently I watched
took notes in my head.
A silent observer,
of all that you did.
You were teaching me
without saying a word.
Lessons were learned,
as Silently,
I observed.
In actions, in living,
an everyday life.
You created in me,
a pattern for mine.
A road to follow,
rules to be used.
The force that guides me,
Started in you.
You've left us now,
but the observer lives on.
Repeating the pattern
for others to see.
Knowing that someone
will silently...
Observe me.

Memory Keeper

Those moments we lived
every step of the way…
I grabbed ahold of
and kept them with me…

Fearing I’d miss
the slightest thing
I stored it all in my memory

As time moves along
they are set free
Piece by piece…
We build your memory.

Trusted to keep them
to never let go…
To deliver them safely
when you’re ready to know…

They are safe here..
guarded by love,
it’s an honor to have them…
A gift from Above.

A Ripple

When did it start?
What caused the first ring?
Was it a splash?
or Did it silently begin...
from somewhere within?

Did anyone see?
How long has it been forming?
What will it touch?
as it travels to the shorelines...

Is the Ripple I see,
The begining or end?
Maybe it's the middle...
and it just got found.

Wherever it started,
How the first ring began..
The splash? the silence?
Can't change the motion.

The Ripples will form,
they will grow and fade.
Leaving impressions,
Even the slightest of change.

Until the moments when..
The Ripple will finally end.