Your Rein

I look at you from across the floor
Your laugh, your smile, your look...
Draws me in for more...
The words you speak,
the glances I sneak...
Captivate me and I yearn for more.
So quickly it builds and consumes me.
The feeling I have when you touch me,
Leaving me feeling like never before.
Head over heals, I'm lost in you,
Consumed by each moment I spend with you.
Hoping inside this is right...
Wishing somehow I could be sure.
The words turn bitter,
But I'm not a quiter...
Leaving me feeling like never before.
Its a ride I'm on, of love and hate.
Knowing now it's far too late.
What will you be feeling...
when you come through that door.
So eager to do whatever you ask,
Willing to die to make this last.
Leaving me feeling like never before.
Wounds that need time to heal,
yet somehow I think it proves my love is real.
Bruises outside ease the pain within,
Wondering now when did it begin.
Whatever I did, I'll never know.
I'm trapped inside a life of terror.
Knowing everything is a weapon,
A tool to be used, to threaten...
to silently take my life from me.
Death is the answer, and yet I escape.
This life is no longer yours to take.
The love you will keep for a time to come,
A piece of me; trapped - to never move on.
Then death takes you and leaves me free,
to find a life that was meant to be.
Years go by and you still keep my thoughts.
Memories held with the terror you brought.
But my heart is free and I find peace
Happiness in this world I now see.
Finally I can live and learn to be me.
Rainbows and waterfalls, I chase in my dreams.
Living and feeling like never before.
Knowing forever I can be:
"a freespirit"...
Controled by you never more.