Monday, October 3, 2016

Now Is Not The Time

"Now is not the time"...
These are the words 
These are what your body says.
And yet... 
That device in your hand..
It gets all the time in your world.

It's the time when you need...
Someone to stand up for you,
Some one to give to you.. 
When your laundry is piled up...
And the room needs to be cleaned.

Not yet an adult in your words
And always a child in my world .. 
At times I'm stuck...
Wondering why 
and yet...
Being a mother to you 
I know.
 
It hurts at times more than...
Those months I carried you.. 
So close to my heart, 
Those hours of pain to hold..
Hold you finally in my arms.

Who knew that one day...
The precious soul would 
Become so completely 
entangled within my heart...
Leaving me running around...
Chasing everything to help you,
Help you become who you desire.

Torn between logic and...
Unconditional Love. 

And yet I will always.. Walk away,
Dry the tears in silence...
And wait...
Wait until..
"Now is the time Mom..."
I need you to...
Love me.

@s.vanderbilt 10.3.2016

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