After Shock

It's just so impossible to absorb. 

A reality that the world says is yours.

Oh, in this mind I hear the words.

Every single shred of my soul has..

Has...

Has grasped onto your reality...

Lost some place now in the After,

Shock... Aftermath... Destruction.

I apologize for filling your time...

With such desperate need to...

Understand..Comprehend... Analyze.

For in this truth you now call life,

I search for the reasons to...

Breath, live, smile... Do anything...

Anything but just die. 

Intellectually I know... I know.

I'm meant to hate you for this.

I should be angry... Livid... 

I should have all the strength

To stand strong... Move on...

.... And yet...

You shook me to the very very 

Essence of my being... 

You have stripped me of my heart,

My soul, and all desire to breath...

To do anything beyond this...

Sickening... Consuming PAIN.

Stronger than the greatest disaster 

This world has to offer... 

The After Shock of you...

May just consume me. 

@s.irfanaleem

3.16 2016