In Silence

Heart racing,

thoughts bursting,

am I human?

How can i be,

silently hurting...

How can I really be thinking these thoughts?

Have I lost my mind?

Lost my grip?

Where are the tears that I know should be shed?

The echos pound within my ears,

Blood rushes through my veins,

Yet here I sit and think of ways.

To sort this out...

As if I am sane???

Emotions... where have they gone to?...

I see these people and wonder,

Heart pounding... why do I hold on to?...

What I am afraid of?

Why cant I just go?

What makes a heart stop loving?

I know... yes I know...

What scares me... is the thought...

That I would have to face life,

If somehow, someway...

I didn't succeed...then...

Then I would no longer,

Be able to feel...  the pounding

In silence.

@s.irfanaleem 1.28.2014