Questioning

These thoughts that run and stumble free,
Leave with me questions only I can read...
If this lacks the emotion,
How does it find the passion?
At times this thing is sure and sweet,
Others it becomes routine...
So does this mean ...
I have lost the love inside of me?
Has my mind been scared
with so much of life...
That my heart won't let me hold on tight??

I love the little things you do,
I love the way you make me feel,
I love the love you show to me,
So, why can't I find love inside of me?
Touches of tenderness I feel,
Moments of endearment that seem so real...
Then, Gone... Disconnected....
I find myself living... waiting to be,
Rejected.

What did I ask for?
What did I seek?
Was I really searching,
to fill this void inside of me?

@s.irfanaleem  11.13.13