Sunday, February 10, 2013

As the spirit dies

So you've decided that this is how it ends...
While inside my heart screams "this is where it begins"...
Breathless is what its left me... it hurts so deep I can barely breath.
So much anger, resentment and frustrations you feel...
My mind is struggeling to conceive this is real.
Now I see what you wanted me to see...
The choices are gone, we will no longer be.
In my head I heard the words spoken...
It didn't reach my heart 'til my spirit got broken.
So now I know as clear as can be... there's nothing left for me.
                  in this realm of reality....
I've been here before... a place I tried to ignore.
A place visited not so long ago.. had I listened then,
                  I wouldn't be here now.
Hard to explain the shock that I feel...
Then the numbing sensation as it becomes more real...
As I open me up and let go of what's within...
As I finally admit to my own distructions...
Focus seems clearer as it comes into light...
The reality that I have just enough left to make things right.
Give me the courage to do what I must... Let me for once in my life,
                   open up and trust....
I try so hard to be in control when all that surrounds me is screaming
                    "Let Go!!"
I struggle so hard to "make things be"
                     Stumbling through life -- I can not see....

@s.ray 7-24-2005

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