Just to

It happens so slowly that the changes aren't seen
until one day you begin to think...
When did it start? Is it anything at all?
So you search for the answers and trust the call.
Reassurance you find in the spoken words,
"Just to rule out" ... and the rest is unheard.
You become a drone as you travel the path,
from this place to that place... answers to be had.
Once again you come to hear, answers for which you search.
Then one word is spoken and the rest is a rush,
of jumbled up - mixed up words that crush.
In an instant all of life is changed...
Cancer now takes its place.
Life takes on new focus, new words you must learn,
new patterns of living - it becomes like a dream.
Spiraling faster than you ever have,
you find yourself feeling like you are going mad.

What is it? where did it come from?, how did it get here...
inside of ME! .... What did I do, what should have changed...
why is knowledge leaving me feeling so deranged.
They know the answers, they hold the keys.
Do you trust them because they hold the Ph.D?
Or trust the voices that inside you run free?
Fighting for what you know to be true,
for the will that you see pulling you through.
Take it or leave it what ever you choose...
this new invader is now a part of you.

Forever it will be a part of your life...
in memory - in present... the reason you fight.
Never being able to go back again,
never to the moment before it began.

s.ray